I've been struggling with immense emotional pain for the past couple weeks (should say months actually, but the past few weeks have been hell) because of this certain person mostly, but also because of friends and family. I want to find my own way and I want to be genuinely happy again. I try every day but it just somehow does not work. My goal is to let it go and be happy. Since I haven't told anyone of what happened because I can't, I've decided that I do need to let it out somewhere where no one knows me but I'll still have people reading this. It makes me feel a little better, or at least the thought of it does. I really, really, really want to be happy.